A Few Safety Tips Before You Ride The Emotional Roller Coaster: How The Hot Hipster Became A Hot Mess

The reason I love blogging so much is that it records the promises you keep to yourself. This post is a perfect example of learning, maturing, refusing to make the same mistakes and never settling for less than you deserve.

So before I take you on my emotional roller coaster ride of the last month, here are some safety tips:

  1. Keep all emotion and confusion inside the ride at all times.
  2. Make sure your “vulnerability” safety harness is secured before the ride begins.
  3. Please note that there will be several high drops.
  4. Enjoy the ride while it lasts, but know that we have very few repeat riders.

So, now that we understand the safety procedures, here we go:

Before we began our exclusive relationship, Hipster literally wined and dined me. He brought me flowers on our lunch date, he cooked me a wonderful dinner, he made large pronouncements such as calling me “love,” “future life partner,” “stunning” and that we would be a “power couple.” I even helped him think of ideas for promoting his catering business. It all seemed idyllic, even with the red flags of living with a slightly unhinged female roommate and the weird relationship with his ex wife, who he said was still “waiting for him.”

After we became “official,” I noticed the romancing started to fade. It seemed that because he had “won” my affections, the charade of wooing was no longer as important. Questions about my life and inquiries  about my dreams and life experiences faded into the background and were replaced by his obsession over his business and interests in wealth accumulation. Every conversation began and ended with his stories, frustrations and feelings. It was a one-sided start to a once promising relationship.

Then came the insistence on unsafe sex- something I was definitely opposed to. I was made to feel guilty about not taking birth control (the pill reeks havoc on my body). I also didn’t want an IUD because of the horror stories I’ve heard from friends. Hipster was frustrated that I preferred condoms because his sexual experience was more important than being safe.

The next disagreement ensued last Friday. He refused to talk about my feelings on birth control, but I eventually agreed to go to the doctor for a prescription. He also let me in on the fact that while he was married, his wife gave him a “hall pass” to “improve their relationship,” which he used and wasn’t opposed to repeating in future relationships. I nearly walked out on him until he stopped me to say “I was just joking.” When I left early Saturday morning, I thought we were on the same footing. I clearly was wrong. For four days he ghosted me, citing that he was too busy. Fine. Last night I sent him a text asking for us to talk about a few concerns. He called me on his way to an event. The conversation went something like this:

Hipster: So what do you want to talk about? When you send a message that you “want to talk,” it’s never good.

Me: Well, I just feel like you’ve been so scalding hot and then so icy cold these past few days and I want to understand what’s been going on.

Hipster: I’m busy! I can’t just text you every hour on the hour when I’m working. When I’m not working, I’m freer to text.

Me: Okay. I just feel like there’s been a sharp atmospheric change between us.

Hipster: I have to say, that for lack of a better term, you’re just trying to nag me and frankly it’s off putting.

Me: I’m just trying to tell you how I feel. If that’s nagging to you than you’re misusing the term.

Hipster: I’m on my way to an event and my energy has now completely changed, so thanks.

Me: If you’re energy has changed, that’s about you, not me wanting to talk.

Hipster. Well, I guess we both need to do some pondering “about us” and what we want. I need to go. You have a nice night, Penny.” [Click].

Yes, he hung up on me. Just like that.

So I pondered. And pondered. Not only was Hipster a poor communicator (kind of a non-starter in my relationships) he was also selfish. I decided I didn’t need to be with someone who wouldn’t be able to stick through the tough times or disagreements. As you’ve probably gathered from my blog, I’m no waif. I am strong and independent and have no time for men who treat their women with disregard and disrespect. Been there, done that.

So I decided to end it with this:

Text Part 1

Text Part 1

Text Part 2

Text Part 2

I never received a response, and I’m okay with that. I allowed myself about 12 hours to feel upset and disappointed. I then deleted his number and information. I want it to be a clean break, even if the shelf life was for one month.

I leave you all feeling optimistic. In my heart, I know I did the right thing for me. In the end, all I can do is love and protect myself and Andrew. I owe it to him to be with a partner who will respect his mother.

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12 thoughts on “A Few Safety Tips Before You Ride The Emotional Roller Coaster: How The Hot Hipster Became A Hot Mess

  1. Scott Mitchell says:

    If he didn’t reply yet, he will, and he will say something ambiguous, but just enough to tempt your heart to have a little hope or at least a little desire to just feel the good part of being with him again and he will keep you on an endless ride down a dead end street (if you allow.) OR, he will just get someone new that he treats the same way. I had a talk with a female friend last night (she’s like a sister) and she told me how guys should be strait with all they’re saying to a woman. Shouldn’t give all those words of hope unless we’re very sure we want a permanent thing. Men carelessly throw those “future life partner” words into women’s hearts too often and then disappear before ever taking things to the next level. Often though, it’s not the intention of the man (we’re just stupid.) We’re so into the moment and really saying what the soul is feeling, but can then change the next moment if we haven’t had like 6 months of getting to know a woman. Therefore, I say that in most cases if a man is mature enough for a real relationship, he will not say such deep things in the beginning.

    Anyway, sorry for saying so much. Just felt chatty this morning 🙂 Good luck with everything there

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  2. Syn_Sunflower says:

    Oh yes he will reply and try to woo you again….what a loser. Good for you realizing your worth and standing your ground. No one deserves to be toyed with…especially with that emotional manipulation….plus if he knew the convo wasn’t going to be great why did he call before an event? Sorry you have to deal with jerks….

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  3. Accidental Repeat Dater says:

    The style of conversation from a man is so predictable its hilarious… this boy (not mature enough to be a man) has the typical style of woo until you win the prize, then the conquest is done. They act like a jerk so that the woman will be the bad guy and do the dumping.
    As George says (Seinfeld) you must have hand. Obviously you let him have it, not good.
    I am surprised how blatantly callous he was. I have never had that perhaps because they may dread my Irish side lol.
    Frankly the only way to get a man is to act like you don’t want them. You’re friendly funny awesome when you’re with them… but you DON’T ever text or call them to initiate the next date etc… This was the only method I found proven to work, unfortunately I did not want him and he kept pursuing regardless 🙂

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